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Saturday, March 30, 2002
I am officially single.
I have been single for a while now, except I didn't know about it.
But I'm getting ahead of myself. I should try to tell this story chronologically.
Eugene and I have gotten back together. I've kept it a secret because I didn't want to jinx it. We've been in an 'undefined relationship' (his words) for 8 months now. Since our actions and feelings towards each other were similar to when we were full-fledged lovers, I foolishly believed that it would only be a matter of time before we made things official again.
Recently, I angered him and he refused to see me or to take my calls. I falsely attributed this silent treatment to one of his temper tantrums, so I left him alone to cool down before trying my luck again. He kept avoiding me and still I thought he was merely upset.
On Good Friday, he called to set the record straight. He has decided, after 4 years of being together, to end our relationship. There's no hope of reconciliation. There's no room for any negotiation or damage control because he already has a new girlfriend.
He waited this long to tell me because he wanted to give me time to grieve and get over my Gran. He assures me that he didn't two-time me. He's known Hazel since his freshmen year and has tried to join her in as many USP classes as possible. However, things only developed between them whilst we were estranged.
'i just wanted 2 say that hazel n i happened while we were not talking. l never 2 timed u. just hope u can forgive me for d empty promises n all i put u thru'. (Eugene's SMS)
I still love Eugene. I love him enough to value his happiness above all. I wanted to be the one to make him happy, but it appears that only Hazel can do this. I can't, in good conscience, stand in the way of his happiness. So I gave him my forgiveness, blessings and good wishes for his future.
I am sad. But that's my problem not his.
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